So it's one of those days, weeks, daunting tasks and you find yourself with barely a loose grip on your bootstraps and more negative than positive thoughts are creeping in on all the reasons why you just can't do the massive whatever in front of you. Sometimes simply 'setting your jaw' and forcing yourself through it isn't the best or will always work. Sometimes the "think you can" train just isn't enough to push you through and over. In those moments, pause and breathe. There is something more going on than just the task at hand. For me, sometimes it's what that task represents that is what is unbearable more than the task itself. In those instances, I need to work through that symbolism before I can actually accomplish the task. To push through anyway would just perpetuate the ill will and me going against myself again. Know that you CAN do whatever, but should you in that state of mind?....perhaps not.
Very well said. I've just been going through that this week. Stressers that I've been handling in the past few months suddenly are leviathans that threaten to drown me. It's not the tasks, the job, lack of sleep, finances. No, for me it's codependance, performance anxiety, trying to suck meaning for life and self worth from weak sources. After taking a deep breath, admitting that I don't have do all this myself, and asking for help; I can finally focus and start being productive again.
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